Again I did not join the others,

It’s so hard,

So hard,

To see them smiling,

To see them laughing.

How can they be so joyous?

Why do they seem so lighthearted?

He found me,

I was crying,

The bathroom,

Their walls,

So thin.

He saw me cry,

He heard my moans.

He saved me.

His arms,

Around me,

Guiding me towards the others.

Their love,

I knew they were right,

I knew they would not hate me.

The look,

The look he gave me.

When I told them.

I can’t stand him to look at me like that,

Like I was detestable,

So detestable.

The sadness,

On the verge of tears,

Why would he be so sad?

I told them,

They know,

Why I do not join them at lunch.

Why I am never there.

They convinced me,

To join them from now on.

From now on I eat!