Hey,

You know I’m talking to you.------------------You alone.

Thanks for remembering about the books. Thanks for caring I guess. I hope you’re okay right now----------------and not so alone and hurt. (Did you even bring a jacket? I heard you just took pretzels and that’s not going to keep you full lol)

Well, whenever you read this and wherever you are, I kind of do------and don’t want you to remember those you left at home. I mean, even though there were some bad people, there were those who loved you too. And they still do--------and stand tall whenever someone slanders your name......but it’s mostly out of love.-------I guess you must think I’m a hypocrite. Haha, and-------you can’t love hypocrites back right?

I know I’ve been a bad friend to you.-----------------I mean, you couldn’t come to me for help when you needed it. You couldn’t talk to me about important stuff.-----Was I just empty to you? You mean a lot to me.---------------------I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you…you know, like, whenever. I know it means nothing to say I’m sorry to you…and that I love you. It means nothing, right? Because you’ll just laugh and say that you love me too (insert :heart::heart: ) and that it wasn’t my fault because I didn’t do anything.

That’s right, I didn’t do anything, good or bad, at all.

But still…I’m sorry. (so sorry)I really really sorry. Sorry for so many many things. (so sorry) Just....sorry, I’m sorry ok? Sorry. Sorry for not being there. Sorry for the way things are. Sorry I couldn’t share anything with you.(so sorry) I’m sorry, Chris, I really really am..-----..truly sorry, so sorry.

Is there anything I can do…to somehow, I dunno, make it better or something? C’mon, live with me or something. Away, anywhere. Anywhere at all-------as long as you’re happy. What is it you’re looking for in life?