What to do With Guilt

Blame weighs down my shoulders

As I find a new solution for my problem

These beverages that burn my throat

Don't ease the pain

The pills that I take

Don't stop the rage

So, my newest friend

So small, but so effective

You make my life so much better

I can't tell my friends about you

They wouldn't understand

They cannot begin to phantom my dependance on you

You take me away from all of my problems

Ecstacy, the only word to describe the feeling

Love, the only word to describe how much I care

I don't know how I lived so long without you

My dull and rusted friend

Sending me away, if only for a little while

Deeper and deeper I go, the longer I will stay

How much more until I fade away

Until my skin turns a sickly gray

Red spots on my sleeves won't wash away

Maybe this time I will stay away

My guilt and all, will fade away.