Sado-Masochist

It's such a shame you hurt me,
It's such a shame I bled;
It's such a shame I believed,
I didn't want you dead.

How did I bear your fury?
How did I bear my tears?
How was it I didn't worry,
When I hurt you in my fear?

Why did you laugh at your hands bloody?
Was that a smile for salty drops?
For even though you loved me,
I want to watch your body drop.

I may be a masochist, but I
Come back each time you make me cry;
I may be a sadist, it's true
I enjoy inflicting pain on you;

I'll hold you in my arms tonight,
And bleed, my darling, bleed;
We knew from the start it wasn't right;
The pain that we both need.

Chantrea Johari
17 October 2004