I don't know, maybe I have just been hurt one too many times now and the wounds feel like they are all oozy and sting like the cut on my hand.

I know that there are people out there who would never do things to intentionally hurt me... but sometimes it just feels like everyone has the possibility of being a potential heartbreaker. And sometimes that thought blows. and sometimes I wish that I was able to do certain things with out so much emotion attached. and that I had the ability to see the asshole from ten feet away.

I just feel like so many things lately are just that... smoke and mirrors. And one thing is always competing with someone else for the attention. and sometimes I want answers when I know I won't get them... and I want things figured out and I want to stop thinking, and feeling and all that junk. I guess I just wished for a scar reducer medicine that was made for the inside instead of just the top layer of my skin... because that shit doesn't help the real scars.