Dwindling Sanity

LoneReaper

spent my day alone in
a room, just a room
with no windows, no doors
no light to reflect upon
nor desires to embrace

confined in freedom
wallowing in the midst
of--of heartbreak
another tally mark
carved on bare flesh

sanity slowly slipping
the pharmacy in one hand
unspoken words, secrets
written on the other
i'm breathing, but dead

never knew that darkness
could only grow darker
never knew deep thoughts
could eat me alive
salvation, can you hear me

i threw away all insanities
wishing for a little sanity
only to find that the things
that drive me insane the most
keep me sane the longest