Lets Bleed Out the Memories

At first I thought

My tears had turned to blood,

But then I realized

That they were foggy and red

With memories that pained

You were my light

And you were my joy

We managed

To be so grown up

And stay friends

Despite our feelings

But you have no idea

How alone I feel inside

You got to go back to him,

Where do I go?

I have nothing and no one now

I tried to forget that I ever loved you

That we were always only friends,

No greater lie could ever be told

Oh dear sweet love I felt for you

I feel for you

That love had flipped itself inside out

And it seems that now

It has a bladed hide

Because I can feel it cut me

Every time I look at you

With that look of happiness

It true you know,

That really is happiness

I’m still happy to be around you

But deep inside I can feel

That bladed hide of love

Cutting me deep

I wish that love could finally make me bleed

So that I would bleed out all my memories

Of love and of loving you,

But I fight to hard to think that I don’t love you

And in this denial, I can’t seem to let you go