Author: Jorda PM
If I can’t have her in my life, I don’t want to live at all...Rated: Fiction T - English - Drama/Romance - Words: 538 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 10-03-05 - id: 2020038
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There was nothing I could do... nothing I could say to her...
Bare feet stepped from the hallway's carpet onto the tiled bathroom floor. They halted on top of a navy blue rug placed near the sink's counter. Melancholy teal eyes stared at the person in the reflective glass. He wasn't unattractive, yet not one of those pretty boys; just somewhere in the middle. Just normal. But it was enough for her... it was. In all actuality, his looks weren't what drew her away.
I'll never be good enough for her...
She had created this facade, one believable enough to trick everyone who knew them. Everyone truly thought that they were perfectly happy together. Well, they were all wrong. Although she never would admit it, she wasn't happy. She was never happy when it came down to it. But things weren't going well enough to convince her to stay. He wished more than anything that they were.
I want to see her face again.. to hold her...
Dreams were far from reality. She was never coming back to him. All of his friends were right and he was completely wrong. The words.. the horrible words that escaped her soft lips were unlike anything he had ever heard from her. It wasn't her, it couldn't have been. Never would she say such things to him.
I need to caress her beautiful skin and kiss her on the cheek...
Every idea he had dreamed since she left was nothing short of impossible. For too long she's been gone... probably living a better life than he could give her. He was only a long, lost memory to her now. She would never know how much she haunted him. He couldn't live like this, he needed to forget about her.
Or simply not live at all....
He felt the sting of ice cold water as his bare feet slipped into clear liquid. His naked body shivered at the feeling, begging for warmth. He ignored it, his mind too enthralled by some of her last words to him.
Love is so amazing, and somehow, at the same time, it's a person's worst nightmare. You may have believed what we had was near perfect, but you were nowhere close to right. We couldn't give each another what they needed, there's no denying it. I know it kills you inside to hear this... you'll have to get over it someday though. What we share isn't love... at least not the two sided kind. There's something out there better for both of us and frankly, I want to find it.
The metal appliance levitated over the water, the only thing keeping it up being his own meager hands. Closing teal orbs, his voice silently uttered her name once more. And with one last withdrawn breath, the click of the object turning on echoed in his ears. Hands collapsed and everything passed within seconds. From the electricity flowing through his veins to the permanent shutting off of all functions of his brain.
If I can't have her in my life, I don't want to live at all...