823pm, 10 11 05

show me how strong you are
push me away
I can't understand how your honesty runs
so smoothly with your reluctance

show me some other way
stop looking so deep inside of me, I've never held anyone so close
it's unnerving

just the other night you were lying there,
eyes open but not looking anywhere,
alone but still without pretense,
comprimisation, or wavering of will
or at least I'd like to think so

and it was only a short while ago,
I couldn't wait to get out of here
eyes shut but without energy
and now I wonder if you're enough to hold me back

the entire floor smells like you
I can be in denial, sometimes, too
they can't tell my future for me

show me a way to act otherwise
not everyone posesses your tolerance for time
not everyone knows the policy by which you so beautifully abide

there used to be a bad vibe for this sort of thing
an acidity in my mouth at its mention
show me how strong you are,
see how long you can put up with me