That bitter day: one year, eight months ago
Frozen in place, unable to breathe
Not fully believing it was true
I heard he died at his own hand.
This isn't what I needed
I cried my tears of sad remorse
Of confusion and of pain
Not knowing what to do
I left my broken, shattered heart
To mend itself without me
To fix itself and become whole again
I went back, forgave him, forgave me
And took my still broken heart
Strewn across a field of sorrow
I took it back just in time to hear
It could happen again, could fall again
The pain, the heartbreak could return
And show it's ugly face once more
This time never seemed so dark, nor this cut so deep
The blood never flowed so free, the pain never so intense
I cried myself to sleep again tonight
Wondering how and why it could be
Never thinking to reflect on my own broken life
And give all I had to you
All my tears, all my blood to you
Everything that I had left in me
Willing to forsake it for the sake
Of life, freedom, hope renewed
The thought of losing you
Would push me closer to losing me
Come back to what we both once shared
Find rest and peace and joy again
Put down the knife
Take back your life