I'm in a dellima... and i was thinking about this when I was about to sleep. I decided to write it down to let my feelings out...

Just a Desire

Love…
Is just a desire,
It is not a need,
I mean nothing to you,
And you made me bleed,

It is not what I yearn,
For I knew the pain,
I knew the pain from tales,
That was told again and again,

You are what I want,
But not what I need to own,
If I failed to win your heart,
I do not mind being alone,

But you have stolen my heart,
And welcomed me into your embrace,
Now I could not let you go,
But too afraid to see your face,

You love me, you trust me,
But left me confused,
I love you for you,
But why am I regretting that I did not refuse?

Sometimes I wonder if you care,
I wonder if you are fooling me,
I wonder if you are just playing games,
And wonder, “Why must this come to be?”

Are my caresses all in vain?
I know one day that I would feel this pain,
While I pick up the pieces remain,
I do not want my tears to fall like rain,

Should I hide this pain from you?
Concealing my weakness pretending to be strong,
And treat you right,
Like there is nothing wrong?

I waited and waited,
For your voice to ring,
But you did not come,
Thus I feel like I’m just… nothing,

Have you any idea how much I miss you?
And I do not know how much you do,
Wanting it to be true,
That one day you would say, “I really miss you”,

I feel less special,
As days go by,
And would you know how I feel,
If my temper rises high?

Oh the sweetness of you,
You made me laugh, you made me smile,
You are like a pixie to those around you,
And I did feel envious for a while,

You want to see me,
But I’d rather be far… far away,
I love you so much, my love,
I love you… every… single…day…