A/N: Kanau is one of my RP characters. He is also one of my favorites. I tried to write some poetry in his POV. It isn't easy, and sometimes his personality changes slightly (or a whole lot). Anyways, please be kind and review. Ok? Also, it is rated M just to be on the safe side.

Kanau's POV Poetry #1

My Life

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If you look into my eyes,

What is it that you see?

A lonely child in the dark?

A frightened soul who soon might break?

A cruel individual who glares and stares

And calls you 'clumsy' almost daily?

If you ever tried

To get to know me more,

Would I push you away?

Would I want to tell you

What happened when I was young?

Would you even try to understand me?

Have you wondered

Why I hate to be alone?

Why I need to have a companion?

Why my love is so strong?

Do you want to know the reason

Why I'm in despair?

It is not only because

Aledren used abuse.

My young life was tragically tormented

Both physically and mentally

By Aledren at first,

And then by many others.

My pale skin is a reminder

Of the blood I've lost in the past.

The many tears I've shed

All alone in a corner.

I had to do this as a job

In order to afford living.

I couldn't stop this filthy 'career.'

I've tried and failed,

Getting abused even more.

It was when I was a young teen

When I've lost all my innocence

And my 'boss' called me a pro.

Horried nightmares now come to haunt me.

My past experiences disgust me.

I try to escape memories of hearing them

Call me different names as I did the task.

Afterwards I would always cry.

Life was no longer worth living.

Until I met my lover Kaddar.

I was chosen to be his personal bodyguard,

But then our feelings began to grow.

I never told him what I truly was,

And to him it did not matter.

He loved me, no matter what.

But now our relationship is failing,

Falling apart, breaking, shattering.

My heart might not handle it.

My life might disappear.

I might do something I'll soon regret.

... Help me... please, help me...

Before it is too late.

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