How could you do this to me? I debated with myself for days! I thought I really didn’t like him anymore! But today in language arts, we spoke! We spoke the whole class through! Many people were there, laughing with us, but he only had eyes for me! For ME!!

We were both laughing at each other so hard we had tears in our eyes. He kept looking in my eyes and at my lips… could he possibly… just maybe… still like me a little? I knew our connection was too real! It was too special!

Yes he still likes her and is openly with that… but… me… maybe…

The other day, when a chair began to fall and we both reached for it, he touched my hand and held it there for a moment longer than necessary…

Yes… I still believe in him! But wait…

What about… his best friend? The one who likes me?

This is too screwed up for me! What am I going to do?

Trevor… look what you’re doing to me! Oh god, I love you! Please, please God! LET ME HAVE HIM!

I drew a picture of us kissing the other day. It’s creepy how much it looks like us… I’ve slept with it under my pillow every night since… oh god… I’m so frigging weird!