Ah, the new Journal commences.

This was the week of October 10th.

By the way, in case you don’t remember, I went to prom with Joe. I’ve seen him over the summer, and I’m still crazy about him.

Aren’t you.

xD Just kidding. We were only there for two hours, and the bus ride to and from took more than twice that long. But it was okay, because all my cetner friends went. i Note: I'm really sorry I ditched you guys today in b French III, Algebra II, Biology, and British History, and lunch too! /b ... And I couldn't ge ta ride home from lit mag /i .

But on the Flipside Joe went.

b THE FOLLOWING CONTAINS RECOLLECTIONS OF MY LIFE CONCERNING JOE, IF YOU DON'T WANT TO READ, THEN SKIP THIS /B

I started out this morning with a fitted top and my nicest pair of black pants. I let my hair stay curly and down, and I wore RED lipstick. I wore black high heeled sandals, and a solid pink purse. I carried my pink iPod mini and a novel. u The Kitchen God’s Wife /u by Amy Tan.

I went to the center this morning to hang out before going to the bus ramp. A couple of the guys were trying to shoot a quarter into Kyle’s pocket. I sat on a table, swinging my legs, looking at them all. On occasion they would endorse me into one of their obsence conversations. Not this morning though.

About a quarter after eight, Joe strolled in. he was wearing business casual, but I thought he looked just as nice. He had a backpack, full of stuff. He talked to me for a bit, not at all distracting the sophomore boys from their game.

Cam, a rather tall sophomore friend of mine, and Mark, Joe’s tall senior friend, entered the center shortly after. They interrupted my conversation with Joe. However, they saved us several awkward silences. Mark produced a family guy dvd. How could I compete with that.

Mrs. Murray announced that we should begin boarding the Martz bus, and all twenty of us migrated to the bus loop by the band room/senior parking lot. I followed several of the boys in my grade, but when I went to board the bus mark was behind me. I turned and asked him what happened to Joe. He’d gone to the boy’s room before the field trip. I hadn’t even considered that possibility.

Mark and I took our seats towards the back of the bus. I took a window seat on the right (from the back) and he took an aisle seat across from me. Joe boarded shortly after us. He had to choose between sitting by Mark, and sitting by me. Guess who? …

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Damn right he sat by me. He’s such a sweetheart. I love him to bits.

Unfortunately as we left the school almost twenty minutes later, after accounting for several misplaced students, Joe prodded me and asked if I minded terribly if he switched seats with Jeff. Poor Jeff had just switched seats with Harris, so Harris could sit near Nick. Anyway, I said I didn’t mind, hoping he would move back. He didn’t.

I was stuck next to Jeff for the next two to three hours of traffic, rain, and a cold shoulder. Literally. I was too short to adjust the AC things above me, so I suffered. They weren’t the worst part. There was a hole beside me, by the corner of the window. Cold air leaked in, and onto my shoulder. I tried to scoot to the other side of the chair, but Jeff gave me mean looks every time I got close. Pissed me off, AND my bus got numb.

When we got to Oracle, we were all starving. Although, we still had to sit through an hour of presentations and speeches by Cam’s dad and other Oracle employees. By the way, joe sat in the row beside me, because there wasn’t another seat beside me. 3

We were split up into two groups. One went on a 35 minute tour, and the other ate lunch. Our lovely back row groups got to go on the tour. Luckly, that meant Joe would be there. I clung to one of the 10 (out of 70 people) girls that was there, and told her about my illness (if you want to know, just ask and I’ll make a section in this journal about it) last night. I told it wasn’t the first time I had the shakes, nauseia and shook REALLY violently. As if I was having a seizure. Evidently Joe over heard me, because he appeared behind me on our way up the stairs and asked me what I had eaten.

I told him, and he told me no wonder I felt the way I had. I explained to him that I was hungry at the time, but I felt that if I had eaten I would have vomited. I By the way, last night a church Joe hugged me really tight, and I mean BEAR HUG tight, last night a church. It was the best hug since my dad /i . Joe said he hated it when that happens. I said I did too.

Joe and I lead the group. We went to the server testing room and listened to a guy muttered about his job. Then we went to the biometrics room. Oh my gosh, it’s totally awesome in there! They use finger prints, palm prints, and facial recognization! Some of us even got to test it out. I might even consider going into that field of technology.

We went back for Lunch, and then left for the bus. Well, we took this huge picture of the CIT in the main lobby of the Oracle building. It was great fun. Then a pack of guys headed for the bathroom as the rest of them went fo the bus.

By the time I returned to the bus, everyone was finding their way to their seats. Oh, and by the way, everyone was sitting in a different seat! I looked for Mark, but instead of Joe sitting beside him… there was Mond. I felt hearbroken. Joe had moved without my consent. I pushed past several people to get to my seat, as I had layed my Jacket there so no one would steal my seat.

There sat Joe, in all his glory. He was talking to mark. I cleared my throat and said, “Now why are you going to sit there, when you know I have the window seat?” He laughed and stood up for me to sit down. Such a gentlemen.

I grabbed the Oracle notebook, and took off my high heels. I curled up in the seat and started darwing. Joe was playing a DS with pixelchat or something with mark. I was listening to my “I wish Joe would notice/kiss/talk/hug/askmeout/dosomethingto-withme” playlist. Well, he didn’t know that. xD I sketched, leaning against the window about 20 minutes into the ride.

During that time, people were getting situated and chattering about their prizes, and grumbling about their seats. I had my music blasting to drown out the sound of Colin’s voice. We had, afterall, had a debate before leaving oracle about who hated colin more: Robby or me? I was a sure fire winner. Joe found this highly amusing.

Also during the venture back onto the interstate, joe, being the silly naïve boy that I love… started talking to me when my ipod was playing. I didn’t mind at all… I just… Wished he would have prodded me or something, because I felt like an ass when I plucked an earbud out of my left ear, and asked him, “I’m sorry, were you talking to me?” Mark commented, and laughed. Joe seemed rather embarrassed. I’m sure I blushed (luckily the heavy make up hadn’t sweated off), but I knew I said, “I don’t mean it to be offensive, I just can’t hear… The music is really loud…” Joe nodded and said he understood, I barked at Mark to shut up. Joe repeated what he had to say, and I laughed. I love sitting next to him. I wish I could figure out if he was my boyfriend or not.

Also during that time, joe was playing his DS. I found it convient to lean over his shoulder, pressing my leg against his and look at the screen until he looeked at me instead. I would promptly ask him what he was doing, and he would explain. Mark would get frustrated everytime joe started a new multiplayer game, because he’d have to stop an explain it to me. 3 I smiled at Mark when he finally handed the DS to Mond, and pulled out his ipod. We were silent. I’m glad that Mark, the best friend, and I, the potentional girlfriend, are on such good terms. My last boyfriend wasn’t so lucky.

That was when I remembered about that break in the window. Yeah… My shoulder… Was numb! So I bent down to get my coat. I covered my shoulder and my feet, but I was still freezing. I asked Joe if he was cold, and he said not in the least. I nodded and went back to my music. Eventually, I situated myself with my feet tucked under me, leaning away from the corner of the window, and on Joe’s shoulder instead; It wans’t until the end of the trip I acutaly realized, DUDE! I’m totally leaning on Joe. It would have been so much better though, from my stand point, and I’m sure mark was inwardly screaming this too, PUT YOUR FRICKING ARM AROUND HER! I gave him at least 5 hints that my shoulder were cold…

Anyway, they played Rush Hour 2 on the way home. I caught a few clips of Gold Finger, James Bond, and Star wars in between… Not to mention Mark grinning at Joe and I. It’s so funny to see your crush/boyfriend’s best friend silently cherring you on. It was actually funny for me to look up and see mark watching us. Then I would look at Joe, who was totally oblivious as always, and the at Mark, and tilt my head. Mark would look a Joe, blivious, and shake his head. Then we would both laugh and go back to our ipods.

Joe and I had several short conversations on the way home. Pixel art. Rush Hour. Racism. The little games on my iPod. Chess. Mr.Long. Oracle. How we should have morefield trips. I found it funny, that Robby told me on the way home from school that he could hear me singing on the martz bus, and that he tried to tell me to stop. Could Joe have enjoyd it?

Joe left me when we unboarded the best. Although he did wait for me to get out of the seat before he left. Such a gentlemen, waiting for his lady to leave. KISS ME, DAMNIT! Then we all went back to the center for the last 10 minutes of the day. I called my father and then asked Brandon for a scrunchie. No, Brandon is NOT gay, he’s just prone to putting his skater cut into a samurai do. It’s the new thing, don’t ask me.

Before I left the center, Joe came back with mark. Mark winked at me I swear before telling us he was heading to his internship. At that, the bell rang and joe escorted me out to the bus. He talked to me for the longest time. It was heaven. I saw my friend, and told him that I loved talking to him, but I had to go. He said, S’fine, and headed off into the sunset

b END TOTALLY ABOUT JOE RANT /b

B BEGIN END OF DAY DIALOUGE /B

So I ran into Jason on my way to the bus, and Jason was all… Why’re you so giddy. I told him I’d spent the day with my crush, and naturally Jason wanted to know. So I pointed Joe out and now Jason wants to fix us up. Then to make matters worse, I ran into Nick and Chris. I was about to tell Nick abouy my day with joe, when I asked chris who he was. I kinda didn’t remember him, so Nick said, “This is my good friend chris.” Chris nodded and said, “Yeah, Joe’s friend…” and I nodded and he spoke again, “remember, I was at Joe’s party?” Oh yeah, how could I forget? Only twelve guys and one girl? xD

So that was it I suppose. Except I found out Lethe was a whore who was giving someone something today. I saw her cuddling with Deryk on the way to Oracle. I wanted to kiss Joe so fucking bad. And when I got home, I wanted to even more. And right now, I can’t wait until I see him again. But every time I see him… I can’t find words.

b That’s it, no more /b

I’ll do a piece (any medium that I’m used to) for someone who can name the Song Title, and Most Recent Artist, these Lyrics are from…

i To those of us who knew the pain, of Valentines that never came, and those whose names were never called, when choosing sides for basketball /i

The same for these Lyrics… Except I want the Song Title and Artist…

i I miss your love, all the things about you, I wish that I could turn back time, your soft touch all over my body, just one thing that’s on my mind /i

I sung these two today, and I caught Joe looking at me when I sung these lyrics. Who wants to Guess why?

b e.n.d.t.r.a.n.s.m.i.s.s.i.o.n /b

MJ OUT