I can never trust again

Never

Not after that

Not after what you did to me

How could you?

My eager, frail mind as innocent as could be

Ruined forever

Images from that day constantly race though my head

Flashing shots of you

You horrible boy

You poor child

I will forever

See your naked body, lying there

Coaxing me out of my bathing suit

As if it were some kind of sick joke

But I, as young and naive as I was,

Knew no better

And you understood that

That is why it is so disgusting

You made me play

And now I will never, ever be the same

I will never lead a normal life

With an average childhood

Recollections of that day aggressively pounce at every tender thought protruding from my pained memory

It has affected me in so many ways that you could never have even dreamed of

It has changed me

I will forever be afraid

And ashamed

Of this body

That was touched

By the hand of evil

Extracting my purity to the point of no return

I am still that scared little girl inside

And I always will be

No matter how hard I try to push her aside

I am soiled and dirty

My life, tarnished and unable to be fixed

Corrupt is my mind

All because of you

So many years ago

Yet I shall never forget

Please, look into my sorry eyes and tell me I will be okay

Yeah, I didn't think you'd be able to

You are the reason why I can never trust again, ever

You'll never know

That I will never forget