jealousy is lousy.

why is it an emotion that surges through my veins with such compassion?
i hatehatehate it.

i don't want to be. i tell myself there's not reason to be. trust has never been broken.
so why do i still worry?

maybe it's the distance. but i doubt it. i had the same problem when he was still here.
maybe i'm just paranoid and insecure.
that must be it.

i'm such a wreck. i just randomly sob all day.
i've lost the will power to do -anything-.
i think i've hit the point where i'm going to fail my classes.

someone tell me what's wrong with me.