TRAPPED

I build my walls, my world,

Around me

And everything tumbled down,

Crumbled away,

After each labored breath I took.

A solitary drop of sweat fell,

But I kept going and going,

Until I was gone.

Brick by brick,

The world waves goodbye,

And bit by bit,

I wave hello to sweet solitude.

I sit in my corner,

And stars light up my once dark, empty eyes;

I am contented.

But the hours!

They flew by so fast!

So fast, that the clock's hands

Don't seem to move at all.

Time erased itself

From my little piece of ecstasy,

My one place of isolated bliss.

The lonely air slowly suffocated me

And the dark crushed my soul,

Until I can no longer see the light.

My heart flew away so suddenly at that moment,

Back to where it belonged,

In a place I can't quite remember.

My memory is blurred;

There's nothing but vague flashes of nothingness.

I then heard a cry, a most disturbing sound;

The ugly void in my chest

Begged for company,

And so Misery found its new home.

Hope abandoned me,

Her long flowing locks trailing behind her,

And Faith and Joy left with their sister.

I am now naught but a soulless shell,

Devoid of life and happiness.

I hate it here,

In my own secret,

Self-built prison.

I swim in pools of my own regret,

And dive in my ocean of tears.

I long achingly for the world,

But I cannot have it.

It is no longer in my reach.

My eyes cannot even comprehend

How far I have gone.

I am so far away,

So very, very distant.

I am so far gone

That I can't see where I am

And can't move from where I sit.

I am numb, and I miss being able to feel.

I had made one fatal mistake.

One that will make me dream

About what-could-have-beens

And haunt me forever in my sleep

And even when I am wide awake.

I had built my walls,

I had built my world,

But I had forgotten to build a way out.

Now there's no way out.

There's no way out.

I am trapped.