silence and illusions

i've always had problems with illusions
and they always have to be about you
sometimes you'd be in my arms so silent
and at others you just cease to be there
i've always wondered if there's something wrong
with the way we are, were or otherwise
and i've been thinking of why we aren't where
i think we belong, and that's together
aren't we both comfortable in silence?
i just like knowing that you are still there
but now i wonder if you are there at all