The Follower

So you’ve made success…

I’m a child, once again

You’ve wanted me to depend on no one

On no one but you

And now I have no idea what the Hell to do

I feel lost, alone, and completely disarrayed

I get jittery to leave class

And as soon as I do, I’m out on my ass

I feel like a failure

I don’t even want to try

I’ve gotten to the point where I just want to cry

I’m tired of feeling blue

And of feeling like I need you

I don’t know why I feel this way

I don’t know why I can’t get myself out of this funk

I have to depend on everyone around me

Everyone around me just to get me through the day

I really, truly hate what has become of me

I’m nothing but a follower…

I’m nothing but a loner…

I’m just…nothing…

And being nothing gets me nowhere…

But at least it’s given you the assurance

The assurance that you will always have someone

Someone who depends on you,

and you solely.

© CLeslie

October 20, 2005