The bottle of pills slipped from her fingers as her body went limp. Though she could not move, she felt. There was a tickling feeling in her arms, spreading throughout her entire body. And then she felt suddenly light as a feather, floating above her body. Her parents came home, then they saw her. Her mother rushed to her side. She watched her mother screaming into her ear, soundlessly, and her father burying his head in his hands, sobbing silently. The paramedics came, and she watched as they put her on a stretcher. She tried to speak, but found she could not. There was a light above her, but she would not enter it. Though it was her who had ended her life, she didn't accept her death. She thought to herself, begging one last chance from God. She promised this time she would live her life right, if He would just give her one last chance- she would try harder, make the pain go away. She was crying as she watched her parents go into the ambulence with her lifeless body, as the paramedics tried to revive her. The lights flashing made her dizzy. Somehow this wasn't a nightmare, it was really happening. She would fade away, now she was just a memory, nothing more, and soon to be forgotten.

Her body was in the emergency room, as she was living through false breath, hooked up to machinary, unable to erase what she had done, she watched and cried. Eternity without her mother, without her father, without her brother...it was all too painful, much more so than life had been. She saw her best friend running to her side, and then clinging to her limp hand, crying.

Just one last chance, and I swear...

Then just as she had dreaded, she saw the doctors and nurses stop trying to give her artificial life. The doctor looked at his watch, and she saw the nurse write down the time. He left and went to the waiting room to her parents, siblings, and her best friend with a grave look on his face. His mouth moved, but she could not tell what he was saying, somehow she knew though. Her mom screamed without a sound, and buried her face in the arms of her husband. Her best friend was still for a moment and as it sunk in, she became hysterical. Tears ran down her father's face.

Watching all this, she was drawn into the memory of the suicide note.

Dear Family and Friends,
I love you deeply. I do this not for myself, but for you. You aren't losing me, but I can not be alive anymore. So I shed this mortal skin, leaving this constant pain behind. I can't explain what happened to me, I can't erase what I've done. I love you all. I'm so sorry. Please do not suffer for my account. Hold me in your hearts, please do not forget me, I shall not forget you.
Christina Louis

Christina screamed. She wouldn't stop screaming. Her parents were leaving the hospital with her siblings and her best friend. Her body was being moved, she was being disconnected from the artificial life. She screamed for them to come back. This time it would be different. There had to be a God, if he was there, he would listen.

And then there was a pulling sensation. Then darkness, and then... lights.

Her eyes fluttered open, and she saw the face of the nurse who was disconnecting her from the machinary. The nurse saw and yelled back for the doctor and her parents.

Her family and her best friend rushed in. Her mother clutched her to her chest.

She was alive. Perhaps...maybe just perhaps...There was a God.