So I try to think happy thoughts but instead I feel like I’m dragged down by the tied, drowning in my eternal sorrows. I long to fight the way I feel. My delicate emotions flow like blood through my veins. My mind, swirling like an impetuous hurricane, snatching up anything which gets in its way from what it wants to conquer.

My radiant thoughts of everything I hold dear to me, I hold no more. My body bloodstained, torn inside and out from words which I suppress. Longing to feel alive again, I try to breathe, only to have death take the last breath away from me. I have tried and oh, how I have failed.

My melancholy mind now refuses to shine. I walk in sinister shadows of betrayal, while I feel the presence of the past haunting me. I can't hear for the silence is deafening. I feel numb, everything has vanished before me.

Words fire like bullets from a gun leaving pieces of my frail heart shattered on the scarlet, ice-cold floor. I am lost within the hell which surrounds me.

I try to forget all the suffering and pain, though I find it hard that to forget that all I went through was because of you.