Mistake

As I walk,

I gaze at the strangers,

Neighbors, family,

And friends

They all gathered.

They take no notice of me.

As I walk forward,

Confused, in pain,

I sense grief, but don’t know why.

Rows and columns of black I see

Tears appear and my name comes up,

In questions and why.

“I’m right here,” I screamed.

Mutterings, thoughts, and sobbing continue.

I look onward at a casket,

And there I lie,

Cold, blue,

Dead.

I remember the lights,

The drunken stupor,

The screaming,

The pain,

The red rivers,

The darkness.

It can’t be.

I’m too young.

This can’t happen to me.

My future,

My goals,

My dreams.

My rage is doused in sorrow.

Heart is not content.

Regret is imminent.

I face what lies before me.

In my heart I know it’s true,

About what’s in front of me.

The road I’ve climbed so hard to reach,

Gone in three minutes,

Because of two stupid errors,

And one mistake.