Just Stop

“Why do you always have to wear such God damn short skirts all the time? Don’t you know that guys probably stare at your ass the whole day? Oh wait you probably do know because you are a such a worthless slut that you probably want the attention.” My angry boyfriend is ranting about the way I dress again. Every word he says sends a bullet to my heart. What am I doing wrong?

“I’m sorry, Luke. I don’t want their attention, I swear. I only want yours. You know that.” As I say this, I try to give him a hug but he pushes me away hard and I smash against the wall. I start to cry softly. He is incredibly strong. Luke is on the hockey team, rugby team and football team at school. He is the captain of all three as well. He is the golden boy. Blonde hair, blue eyes and a killer smile is what characterizes him. It’s a wonder why he is with me.

“Go ahead and cry you whore. Now put these clothes on.” Luke throws me some of his clothes, which would be oversized on my very petite frame. I have been dieting for quite some time now because Luke says that I need to lose some weight.

I look up at him with tears in my eyes as he towers over me. I take the clothes slowly and go into the bathroom to change. When I come back he is sitting on the couch watching a hockey game. My body is now draped in fabric. I go to sit with him on the couch and as I do he puts his arm around me and kisses my forehead.

“I’m sorry, baby. I just don’t want other guys to be all over you. You are mine and I am not up for sharing you. I love you. I shouldn’t yell at you like that or shove you and it won’t happen again. I promise.” The infamous apology is said again but this time he is telling the truth. I know he is. He wouldn’t do this to me again. That’s just crazy. I mean there are only so many times you can lie about it. I give him a small kiss on the cheek to show him that I forgive him.

The next morning at school, I walk down the school corridors. My long brown hair is flowing in back of me. I can’t wait to see my friends this morning because it’s Courtney’s birthday today. I have been friends with her in such a long time and I really want to spend time with her today. She is basically my best friend in the whole world.

As I turn the corner of my high-class school’s hallway, I see Courtney there with all of my friends. I start to run towards them but before I can reach them Luke jumps in front of me out of nowhere.

“Hey babe. Where are you off to in such a hurry? I thought we could eat breakfast together in the caf this morning.” He says with a smile on his face. I know that if I tell him I want to spend time with my friends that he will drag me downstairs with him and he will get in a really bad mood but I really want to stay up here today.

“Actually I was running because I really wanted to see you and I had the same idea. I’m just going to put my books away and go to the bathroom and I will meet you downstairs, okay?” I say, slightly nervous for lying to him. I kiss him quickly and start going towards my locker, pretending like I don’t see my friends.

“Alright see you downstairs.” He says and he disappears down the stairs.

Once I know for sure that the coast is clear, I jump onto Courtney hugging her to death.

“Oh my God! Court! Happy birthday. You are like seventeen now. Wow! So what was it that you wanted for your birthday again? Did you get it?” I say with lots of enthusiasm. I let go of her and my friends all look at me seriously. I sense that something bad happened or is about to happen. “What’s up guys? What’s wrong?”

“The only thing I really want isn’t a possession or a material thing of any sort. The thing I want most is something for you. Haley, we know what he does to you. We know everything. Just break up with him please. It’s for your own good. He isn’t treating you right. You know that he goes around with other girls, right? I mean he tried making a move on me for God’s sake. And you even forgave him for that.” Courtney seems to say this in one breath but I hear everything she is saying and I fill with rage.

“You do not know anything that goes on with Luke and I. He does not go around with other girls. I asked him about those pictures you had of him and Brooke and he said that she threw herself on him. He also told me that you were lying about him trying to make a move on you because you were jealous of us. At first, I thought it was a misunderstanding between the two of you but now I know that you are jealous of us! I cannot believe you! My own best friend. Do you girls all think this two?” I turn to my other friends and they all nod their heads.

“Courtney is right, Haley. He doesn’t treat you right and you are so God damn blinded by his so-called ‘love’ that you don’t see it. What does he do when you aren’t with him? What does he do when he goes to parties without you? What does he do with those other girls he hangs out with? Do you want to know the answers? Well here they are.” Sara throws a bunch of pictures at me with Luke and a different girl in each one. He is groping or kissing or fondling each one of them. I collapse to the ground.

“No you are lying! This isn’t him.” I yell out. “Please tell me you are lying.” I start to cry uncontrollably. Courtney sits down next to me and rubs my back then gives me a long hug.

“We know how much he has hurt you. Everybody knows. It’s kind of hard to miss considering all the weight that you have lost, the way he is always around and the fact that he doesn’t let you speak to any other guys or even go out with your girl friends. Just please break it off. You know that I wouldn’t ask you to do this if I really didn’t want you to. Your happiness means everything to me.” Courtney says this in a very soothing voice.

“But… what will he do if I break up with him? He will go crazy. He will hurt me. I can’t, I just can’t. I love him.” I say and I shiver at the thought.

“No, he won’t. We will go with you. We will do it in the middle of the caf. He won’t be able to do anything. I want you to do it now though or else you won’t do it. I know you Haley. Please just do it now. You shouldn’t love someone who only hurts you. He doesn’t love you Haley. He is just using you to be his trophy girlfriend. He sees you as an object not a person.” I nod my head at what Courtney says.

“I just want you to come though Court.” I say to her but loud enough so my other friends hear. They nod and walk away to our usual hang out spot. “I’m scared.” I whisper.

“I know you are but imagine how much more you will be if you stay with him. Multiply your fear by ten and then you will know how scared I am for you.” Her blue eyes sparkle with a layer of tears in them. She was being sincere. The words were seriously coming from her heart. Her long hair is in a ponytail which means she was thinking before. I look straight into her eyes with my dull brown eyes that have cried rivers and rivers for the past year of being with Luke.

“Let’s do it.” I say. I get up and she does too. We don’t say another word. We just walk down the stairs and turn the winding halls towards the cafeteria. There are hundreds of people in there. I’m going to be safe. It’s okay. I walk straight to the middle table where Luke usually sits. Courtney is trailing behind me, trying to keep up. I am determined now. I think back at all the hurt that he has caused me and still causes me. I reach his table and Luke looks up. He sees Courtney and looks at her funny.

“Why the fuck is she here?” I slap him the instant those words slip out of his mouth.

“Don’t you dare talk about my best friend that way or anyone for that matter! You know how much you have hurt me over the past year. Do you understand what you do to me, you jerk? You have been messing around with every girl under the moon and the stars and I have been too busy thinking we love each other and you do what you do because you love me. You made a fool out of me. No wait, I made a fool out of myself believing the words you said to me all this time. All of your stupid fucking apologies that you never meant. They are just words to you. There is no emotion to them. You know what Luke? I don’t need this. I don’t need you! We are over Luke.” I say this with so much rage. My face is so hot from all the anger I have built up. I feel my eyes burning holes in his as he stares at me with a blank expression.

“What baby?! What are you talking about? I buy you flowers almost every week and I take you out to din…” I cut him off.

“What in the world are YOU talking about? You know you are such a liar. You want to look good in front of all your friends and everyone else. That is all you care about.” I turn away from him and run upstairs. I can hear Courtney saying that he better not get one foot near me but her voice trails off.

I try and avoid him all day, which is harder than it, sounds, considering he had had his schedule changed so he can be with me every minute of the day. I get an uncountable number of notes from him, which I rip each one in front of his face and throw in the garbage.

By the time I get home I had twenty-three messages on my answering machine. Each and every one is from Luke. Each message showed a different emotion but the last one got to me.

“Hales, you know how much I love you. I know you do. I know you love me too because we would tell each other every day. Remember how we were when we first started our relationship? Remember all the good times we had together? I do. I remember each and every one. I don’t want to lose that. I want you back Hales. Please take me back. I want to go back to what we used to be.”

I save that one message. I cannot bring myself to delete it. I sit in my newly furnished kitchen as my maids walk around my tidying up, a pang of guilt went to my heart. Maybe he really wants that. He sounded so sincere. No, he is probably just lying. Oh my God! I don’t know what to believe anymore. I just want everything to end. I want this all to go away now. I don’t want to think about anything anymore. I want peacefulness!

Two months pass and I still get a ton of messages at home, on my cell and through his friends. The hurt is still there and I miss him so much. He wouldn’t be doing all this if he didn’t mean it. He could of given up a while ago. I know that he loves me. Anyone who works this hard loves me. Maybe I should hear him out. I tried speaking to Courtney and the rest of the gang about it but they won’t listen. They don’t want me saying his name. There is no one else there for me to talk to either. My mom and dad are never around. They are always at galas or out of the country or something.

I pick up my phone and dial Luke’s cell phone number. He picks it up right away after the first ring.

“Baby?” He says in a loving voice.

“Yes, it’s me.” I say softly. Hearing his voice again is so hard. I miss having him hear with me. I want him back.

“Oh Hales. I miss you so much. Please tell me that you are calling to take me back. I promise it will be just like how it used to be. It will be how the good times were. Please.” Luke says this with such sadness and hope. “I haven’t been able to stop thinking about you.”

“Come over.” I say simply and hang up the phone.

Not even five minutes after we hung up, I hear his car screech to a stop in front of my house. The smell of burnt rubber fills the street. I can hear his big footsteps approaching the door and the doorbell rings twice. I quickly walk down the curved stairwell to the door. I open the door and he is standing right in front of me with a dozen daisies. They are my favorite flower. He kisses my cheek and then gives me a huge hug.

“These are for you.” I smile as I take them.

“You shouldn’t have.” I say.

“I needed to.” He says. “I love you, Haley. I don’t want to hurt you anymore. You mean the world to me.”

A month later, I walk down to his basement where Luke is waiting for me in sweats and a plain shirt. I didn’t feel like getting dressed up because I feel really sick today. I have been feeling sick for quite a few weeks now but I came over because I had some important news I had to tell him. He looks up at me and looks horrified.

“You look like a stupid bum in those clothes. Can’t you even dress up for me anymore?! Of course not! At school, it’s another story though right? There are a ton of other guys there that you want to show off your body to. You know what Hales? They don’t give a shit about you. Nobody does. Why would they?” Luke yells. He comes right up to my face and slaps me hard. “If this is what you wear to come see me, this is what you will wear to school. I don’t want to see you in anything else.”

I start to have tears in my eyes. “Luke there is something I need to speak to you about.” I say calmly.

“What is it now?!” He says sounding annoyed with my existence.

“I’m pregnant.”

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A.N. Hey everyone! Well I had to write a story for school and this is it. Tell me what you think. Do you think I should continue? I'm not really sure.