“Please”

30-11-05

About being scared of wanting something so much

I’m kind of scared... that you want me only for that... and what is going to happen when that ends... when the time comes again and Ican’t touch you... I can’t be near you... this longing would hurt more? I guess... because we will be closer then.

Please tell me it is not a game. I’m happy because I finally admit it... I said it... and I’m waiting to that moment to come; because I want to be close to you, to supportu you like I do, but I want to show you it is true that I would do anything for you, and also it is because I want it. I love you, and I’m more scared of telling you so, more than saying “please make...”

I need you, something real; so please don’t toy with me... I can show a cool expression that says “don’t worry, we are friends, and we are VIP for each other and that’s it”... You are special, so special to me and that’s the truth... you know that certanly, and you know what I feel for you, even if I don’t say it directly...

I want the next step... trully be with you, maybe not always because it is not posible, but I want to be with you all the time that you can give me... That’s diferent with you, the fact that I told you... that I asked you to give me time, time just for me. I want you for me... only for me. That precious moments, I wish they could be as many as the stars in the sky, but at last I can declare that they would be the most precious treasure; they would make memories and those are what I breath what I eat, what makes me live everyday. So those loving memories can make me, make us live forever, or as intense as anyone can live. Let’s escape time, let’s get lost within. I just want to disapear in you. Please make my wishes come true. Make me happy since I’m giving you my heart.