Mask

By: Erin Larson

Blue eyes

Gaze idly and I wonder

What life is like

Beyond those doors

Your soul is set ablaze

Your heart afire for me

Your words pierce

My very being

I can not breathe

I can not speak

And yet you are nothing more

Than a friend

You are my knight in shining armor

Although I haven’t been rescued by you

My darling

My lover

My savior

You ride into the war of my heart

Gallant on your white stallion

Weapons poised and ready

But I scream

Do you hear me from the side?

I don’t want to risk losing you

I look at you

You’re nothing that I’d want

You’re simple

Thin

And so wonderful

In so many ways

I don’t deserve your compassion

I don’t deserve your love

Find a mistress to your liking

You can not be my knight in shining armor

That would steal away true love for the one that truly deserves you

Stop taking my hand

Stop whispering those sweet nothings in my ear

You don’t want what I have

I’m broken

A malfunction

Now that I’ve poured my soul to you

And you’ve dissected my heart to bits

Can I put back on my mask?