You have put me through hell

Changed me from extremely happy

To extremely sad and broken

I trusted you

I gave you everything I had

And yet it still wasn't enough

Nothing I did was ever right

I was always wrong

Walking on eggshells

Trying to please you

My heart was always bleeding

Mostly from the pain you put me through

I never could make myself

Change into the girl you wangted

Because no matter how I tried

I was never exactly what you wanted

I cried myself to sleep at night

Praying for it all to end

For you to just give up and leave

But you never did

Not until I had finally had enough

You cried and begged

But I never backed down

I can't trust a soul now

Not even myself

Nightmares still haunt my dreams

They are always just memories

The car accident

The first few times you hit me

Everything you did

Comes back whenever I finally get over you

Whenever I think I have all the pieces back together

They just shatter all over again

You're still hurting me

And you're not even here

The memories keep you here

I have found another

But because of you

I find it hard to trust him

He is nothing like you

He only wants what is best for me

You only wanted what was best for you

And it wasn't me

From the times you hit me

I sometimes shrink away

Even flinch

If he raises his hand to me

Just to caress my cheek

Or to rub my neck

Or to brush aside a piece of hair

That fell across my face

All this fear

All my pain

Is because of you

Of your greed

Of your selfishness

I'll never trust again

Never feel safe with another

I can't live my life in peace anymore

Because of you