Blood drips down my arm

I'm losing myself in this pain

It never stops

Not that I want it to

This feeling is addicting

I never want it to stop

Even if it kills me

I love this feeling

I'm half alive

And half dead

Not knowing what could happen

If I close my eyes

Even for a second

I could die right now

And I wouldn't even care

Just as long as this pain never dies

It's the only thing I have left

To hold on to

The only thing

I can somewhat control

It might kill me in the end

But I know I'll die happy

I know it'll be of my own doing

My own personal choice

I wish I could do this forever

And never die from it

But that's not possible

The blood will continue to flow

Until there isn't any left

And that's what I want

I want the blood to flow

From the slits on my wrist

Until there isn't any left

Until I am lying on the floor

In a beautiful pool

Of my own blood