What am I supposed to do

When I find this pain consuming me & all I am

All I can hear are the words

I am still begging to not be real

The agony is tearing through me

And I find myself wishing I could do what you did

I listened to what they had to say

And it cut me so deeply

I feel I'm still bleeding to this day

Because of how I heard you bled that cold night

The only warmth that ground knew

Wad the warmth that poured from you

I try to think back to better times

But I end up feeling so alone

As I realize they will forever in the past

Because of how you've left all of us

What was the mistake

What was the memory that you couldn't out run

The one you felt you had to die to escape

I listened to what they had to say

And it cut me so deeply

I feel I'm still bleeding to this day

Because of how I heard you bled that cold night

The only warmth that ground knew

Wad the warmth that poured from you

The agony is tearing through me

And still I find myself wishing I could do what you did

Tell me what I'm supposed to do

Ehen I find myself wishing I could do what you did