Author: miss-elty PM
ONE-SHOT. The word 'but' can only go so far. Sometimes you just have to say something. But maybe that's the hard bit.Rated: Fiction K+ - English - Romance - Words: 410 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12-22-05 - id: 2074542
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It was never supposed to turn out this way.
I mean, sure I had suspected it, but I never thought that it would come out.
I just read something that could change something with someone that I thought things were going good with. I don't really want it to change, but a part of me just wonders if it was only working so well because of what that someone wrote.
But I actually don't know if I believe that... of it's simply an excuse.
This is confusing me. I don't like getting confused. It messes with my head.
I wish that I could talk to him right now. But he's not online and that's the only way we've ever really talked.
I could email him, but I want to do this right.
But I guess I need to think first. About what I want to say.
Because otherwise I'll say something stupid. And things will fall apart.
And I don't want it to be like that.
In some other time, in some other life, maybe things could have been perfect.
Why me? I never thought it would happen to me.
I just thought that I could just be me, and live being me, without having to think about these other things.
But then I guess things started to change.
We're not exactly friends right now, which saddens me.
But what can I do about it?
Maybe I should just email him. It can't be that hard.
Maybe I should-
He's online. I don't want to. Not yet...
I'm opening the window now, just leaving it open.
I think I know what to say. Actually, I don't... But I'm going to say something anyway.
Too late. He just went offline.
But what if...
I begin to type.
Review responses for Regretful Night:
penami: yeah... sigh. Too... yeah. and will see you tomorrow and tell you how all this goes.
MIDNIGHT-PIXIE: yes you! Catch up!
p-y-a: I should probably update you... later. Letting go... that's proving to be hard right now.
RoseofFlame: This isn't written in quite the same style... but hope it's good enough. Thanks for your review.