Everything used to shine for me

There was nothing that I couldn't shoulder

But you'd never know it to look at me now

You'd never know just who it was that I've loved & lost now

To so many he's no more than a memory

But to me he'll always be so much more

One can only imagine what it is I see when I pray to forget

When I'm kneeling wishing & hoping

Every night now it's always the same & I cry out

Why didn't you take me too

Why was it only you

Why did you feel it had to be you

There's a new memory I can't get out of my head

It's the memory of the moment when they told me you were dead

I don't know what else to say

I don't think I ever screamed before like I did that day

I screamed in pain

I screamed in agony

And I still scream in misery

Wishing I could've gone with you

One can only imagine what it is I see when I pray to forget

When I'm kneeling wishing & hoping

Every night now it's always the same & I cry out

Why didn't you take me too

Why was it only you

Why did you feel it had to be you

Author's Note: Originally written on December 3, 2005.