mama
i love you
you're my best friend ever
we do everything together
bedtime stories every night
and you always kiss me after
i don't want it to change

mommy
i still love you, but
why do you hate me?
i'm trying to be good
the kids at school ask
what the bruises are from
i don't say anything

mom
i hate you
i'm tired of all your shit
blaming me for everything
you said i couldn't see him
so i took the pills and
now i'm in the hospital
way to go, you bitch

mother
i'm sorry i said all those things
i can't take them back now
i should've known you were sick
if only you'd talked to someone
it wouldnt've ended like this
with a bullet in your brain
and i can't help but think it's my fault

i never really hated you
i was just too scared to accept this