Stay

They tell me not to throw it all away-

If you find love, hold on tight

But these whispers

From the ghosts of others

No longer hold a meaning

For a lost soul.

Now I travel a dark line

Searching for my own reasons

Not to lose myself

Not to lose you

Trying to remain true

Remembering speckled raindrops in the dark

That remind me of that time in the park

And all the other times

I wanted to tell you

That you’re not mine

Even though I’ll be yours

Until you tell me the dreaded

Blessed

Words

I’ve found someone else.

If only I could change

The person I have become.

How stupid could I be

Berate myself

Beat my heart

As my heart beats coldly

Slowly

Beside the light

I cannot reach.

As I hold myself back

With a rope of thorns

Hurts and I like it

I need it

I hate it

I chose it.

Torn between wanting and hurting

Halfway to hell

Fallen into heaven

Blinded by the light

Afraid to look past the shadow.

maybe maybe maybe

Make the choice

Cause I’m nobody

So I’m not good enough

To choose to throw it all away

or stay.