It hurt so much.

I never thought such pain could exist.

My heart felt so weak

As though it would give up any second.

My tears burned my face.

It hurt so much.

I couldn’t believe it.

So much agony from a tear.

It felt like it wouldn’t stop.

As if it’d go on for eternity.

My thirst grew with every minute

But I couldn’t keep down the drink.

My stomach, like it was pierced with a sword

I felt as if I could vomit.

I had to force it down.

And I’m so tired now.

I didn’t know crying yourself to sleep was possible.

I didn’t know it would happen to me.

I’m still draining.

And I can barely breathe.

The stuffed animal which I held

It’s soaked with my sorrows.

Ace carries my anguish

And he never says it’s too much.

I couldn’t stop asking why.

Why them God? Why me?

Why do you let sadness live?

Why did I have to suffer through it?

Why did I have to bear it alone?

No one held on to me.

I wasn’t rescued by solid hands.

And you left the candle burning.

Why did you leave it there to mock me?

I had to hold something.

I grabbed whatever my hands could grip.

But though I held onto something

I felt like I was falling so fast and it made my stomach turn.

It was my fault no matter which way you look at it.

I was such a fool and I failed.

I lost trust and love.

And I feel like I’ve lost my best friend.