January 8, 2005
A Lover’s Tale

So it’s been a full two years,
And I just can’t seem to let go.
I can’t say goodbye to the dreams I used to have,
And as I listen to this love song,
This sad song that haunts me,
I think of all you’ve done to me.
I feel like I’m lying down,
Suffocated by the lies you told me.

It’s like they said,
However far away,
I’ve always loved you,
But however close you were,
You never loved me back.

I could meet you a thousand times
And I bet I’d make the same mistake
Each time.
I can’t stand the possibilities
Of never falling in love again
For lack of trust.
I want to feel what those happy couples
Talk about all night long.
I want to walk down an aisle with my face covered
And I want to hold a child.

Instead I’m mixed up because of you
And I can’t face the pain that touches me
But I have to.
Go away.