Written Sunday, June 05, 2005, 10:51:24 PM

“Beating Heart”

Stop

My heart keeps beating

Slower … slower it beats

I’m calming down and letting myself catch my breath

I look up you, smiling

You glance at me slightly

And only then, only then,

Does my heart start to beat fast again

Stop

Fast, faster, faster it goes

The numbers of beats are increasing as the seconds go by

Every breath I take

Every step I take

Every time my cheeks fluster

I can feel it beating

Harder, deeper,

Pounding against my chest, my rib cage

Against my own flesh

Stop

You make me beat too fast

My heart is racing

Not a beat missed,

On and on

Until I can feel the warmness in it

Until I can feel the excitement in me

Until I am breathing so hard on the inside

It never stops

It beats so hard, so quickened like lightning,

My heart, head, soul just hurts

I am spinning in a whirlwind of pain

I am so happy, but I am bleeding on the inside

You make me beat

Can’t you see?

But my heart won’t stop beating

It quickens in speed when I see you

Can’t you see?

I am smiling for you

Can’t you see?

How nervous and anxious I am on the inside?

Please stop,

My heart from beating like this

I am joyful,

I am saddened,

Why can’t my heart stop making me think like this?

So stop

Stop my heart from going to its’ fast pace

Make it stop

I am scared

I am frightened

I am glad at the same time

Just make it stop beating for me

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Allthingsapple: Hmm … I guess I was trying to portray a girl’s twisted kind of love, or maybe not. A girl who is scared and happy at the same time when she feels her heart pulsing so fast when she sees the person she likes. A bit of a weird idea, don’t you think?