Here I sit in turmoil darkness, broken hearted alone with my pain

Don’t knock on my door, don’t look through the rain

I am dancing in your garden, alone at night

I am naked and free, sweet, sweet moonlight

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Here I am, mud coated on my bare feet

I feel free, independent, skin white as a hung sheet

I scream to the heavens, dark with rain clouds up high

I cry and I plead, I beg to get by

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You ignore me at night, when the lights are all out

You walk by me in the halls, installing my doubt

I hate that you hate me, I hate that you do

I hate that you’ll never love me like I wish I loved you

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You watched as I grew, from a child to a teen

I watch the weather change, the grass get green

My eyes are old behind these frames, blocked behind my walls

I know you cant see it, you aren’t looking at all

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Here in my mind, I watch the red run cold

I watch the world turn black, my heart turn old

I am what is left of what was broken long ago

When I said I loved you, and you just let me go

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I am all that I have, here alone, by myself

I am all that I am, I wont change it for anything else

I am here, I am alive, for now anyway

I still watch you, I’m afraid, even today

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You wish I wasn’t yours

Not yours, not yours

You wish I wasn’t yours

Not yours, not yours

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I stopped being your baby, started being your offspring

I stopped being your pride, your joy, your most favorite thing

I am not what you wanted, a disgrace I digress

I am not what you wanted, I am not the best

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And sometime in the future you’ll think of me one day

Maybe you’ll smile and laugh, remember me when your gray

I am not to be molded into a conformist view

I’m sorry you don’t love me, but I’m not sorry I’m not you

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I am who I am, and that’s all I’ll ever be

You wish I wasn’t yours

Someday I won’t be