You never used to (bethisfuckedup) bruise this easily
BlueBlack, wearing your heart (coloured&) on your sleeve
Don’t know what keeps me (here)
so addicted. After all,
sweatBlood&tears aren’t that
attractive
(or do you like it when I’m dying?)

Stab another (motherfucking) needle into your arm
& smile with guilty ecstasy as you
watch the liquid poison infiltrate (this transparent flesh) and
merge with your blood
(which is which? Can’t you feel it killing you?)
Your own mind works to betray you
(it feels so good. Just one
last last one)

and now Heaven & Hell have disappeared
Time no longer exists, as you
Lie still & watch the world pass you by in brilliant colours
like a movie on mute (& your high on apathy)
Tell me
Is. This. How. It. Feels. To. Be. Alive?

But cloud nine was just an(other) illusion, a(nother) lie
You couldn’t fly with paper wings & now you’re back here
at this in-between place where you’re nobody (special)
and the world is just
Black&White
(this is how it really is)
Photographs
memories that scream (your sorrow)
“Forget Me Not”

And those voices are back (they haunt you)
and they occupy your head & whisper
(wouldn’titbesoeasytojust?)
surrender to the needle. Let the unclean metal invade your (showno)
resistance

Ohgodplease I promise
(it's just so empty)
I won’t anymore, I'll leave this allbehind
if you give me
Just one more hit. Just one more fix.
Just one…