I am deception

With every little thing I do

Every little thing I say, I’m with them

I am toxic

Seeping in

Embracing lies like a long-lost twin

I can feel what I need to feel at will

I feel so inhuman, I feel so unreal

I just can’t stop lying

There’s a truth you will never know

That I hate you with every fibre in my bones; every inch of my being

I just can’t stop lying

Truths I could never divulge

That I hid; that I smoked; I pretended to choke

And now I’m floor-bound … something jamming my throat

Maybe I need help

But lying is more natural than truth

“One piece of advice: be honest”

But I could never make that promise