Jan 23 - You, You, You, You and Emotions

Why am I feeling like this?
Tears forming without a reason
I can make life hate me in an instance
Only a thought

A single thought can trigger
Bullets to the head
Gun pointed at the cranium
Fucking retards

You make me hate you
Haven't you already figured that out?
I tried so hard to brush off that burning anger
You just have to say your bullshit, always

You never shut up
I never tell you to, anymore
Yet you still continue
Making me peeved

You abuse
Not just me
You know who
Son of a bitch

I dislike you
I despise you
I hate you
Wrath

The other hand
You're so stupid
So useless
In English

I don't know what to do with you
I know you had a long day at work
It was only for just a day
I'm sure you can handle it

I go to school
Six hours a day
Five days a week
I work

I need money
You can't give me
No one can
Rebel

My tongue's pierced
I like it
But better then that
I did it to spite you

Incorrect grammar
I don't bother
It's not my place
Mother!

We're not married so
Stop treating me like shit
I don't deserve it !
I trusted you!

You were almost everything to me !
Maybe I got too attached
Like I always do
Trusted you too much

Four hugs a day
Just a minimum
Then you made
Everything a joke

If she's mad at you
You had no reason
To turn your anger towards me!
Don't ever do that!

You're such a joke!
You befriend a person I hate!
Wow
You're unbelievable

I guess I really can't blame you
You're young
Three years difference
I would never expect you to understand!

Any fucking part of my depressing life
Many times I've tried to tell you
"I'm depressed"!
You would never understand!

I told myself you understood!
That you heard me!
Listened to me!
Cared

Gave a shit
When no one else did
Fuck you!
We would've had beautiful children!

Now I've lost close friends
Same drama like 3 years ago
Apparently I'm too good for them
Again

It's always the same
I'll always be that outcast
I wanted them to join me
Really I did

But the fat pig of this year
Had more of a say
Her last year
Wants another day

Whatever
Everything's shit
I wonder when I'd break down
I guess this is it

After everything piles up
This is what it turns into
Drama after drama
Profanity

Tears
Lost Emotions
Uncontrolled
Wrath

You disturb me once more
Another stupid comment
I yell at you
My music blares to block you out

Fuck off
Right off

It's closed
I know you're doing homework
I know I was mad at you during the weekend
I know it was my fault

I didn't deserved what I got
Everything hurts
Everything's affecting me
It's tearing me apart

Stop it
Make it stop
Gun pointed to the cranium
Bullets to the head