and if they could see me now,

they’d laugh

never gone too far

oh how that bridge crumbled

a little too early

and it was still too late

teeters

struggling to stand

i

reach out to that unwilling hand

knocked down

shielded by irrational fears

no my body

was never found

not that they tried to attend

my funeral

no, they tried

(shut up)

just not hard enough

(leave me the fuck alone!)

Because

i wasn’t worth the effort.