I torture myself.
with thoughts of you.
with hopes of you.
but I was never good enough.

I lost myself trying to find you.
I hurt myself trying to heal you.
I lost faith in myself trying to believe in you.

I wanted to save you.
from your self-destruction
and I lead to my own self-destruction,
I wanted to save you.
from your confusion
and I confused myself.
I wanted to love you.
because you couldn't love yourself
and I soon hated myself.
because you wouldn't love me.

I wanted to save you,
but instead of saving you from yourself,
I should have saved myself from you.