I stare out this window

Looking into nothing

This abyss, this hole

Is bleeding heavily

Never slowing, never stopping

It will keep on bleeding until there is nothing left

Nothing alive to keep on fighting

It hurts to stand up

It hurts to fight

It hurts to know that I am killing you

Just as you are killing me

I try to not let it touch me

I try to go on as if I’m untouchable

But I’m not, especially when it concerns you

I can’t do this forever

Acting like it doesn’t hurt

When it does

It hurts my soul

I’m breaking apart

Slowly piece by piece

I’m breaking and nothing will be able to put me back together

I’m hurting from the pain

The anguish of guilt

Of sorrow, horror

Realizing that no matter what I do it will never be enough

Enough to bring you back

Though I try

I can’t keep this up much longer

But I will

I keep on fighting

Praying that one day you will come back to me

When I know deep in my soul you will never be back

No matter how long it takes

No matter how hurt I am

I will never give up

Until you are back in my arms

Even if it is never

Even if it takes forever

I will be waiting

Never giving up

No matter how much I want to

No matter how much it hurts

I will never give up