I can’t think straight

My head could at any time

Just well up and

I lose.

I might have already lost

When I allowed this to happen

I let it fester

And morph

And now

I’m away from you

Friend of old

I can’t keep my mind

Away

From everything we’ve ever been

Ever done

Ever seen

Together

A friend

A confidante

To a play

Then a show

It has to stop

We’ll always be

Friends I know for a fact

But what I don’t know

Is what to do about you

I fear rejection

You know

And to be rejected by you

Would hurt

Too much

But what now

You’ve seen me through

More than one awful let down

My romanticism fails

Again and again

You know but laugh

With me as I taste

Salt of my tears

Of my hopes and my fears

But then I wish

You

To hold me in comfort

For what may seem like

Forever

For me first

And last.