Now, in my mind

I was crazy to think that it will work out
So many times, I had told myself
Nothing will ever work out
But I still had to fall in love with you
and give myself pain once again

Now I can’t keep your images outta my head
How you always stick your tongue out playfully at me
Now I can’t forget how comforting your touch was

I know it’s my fault
for never telling you how much you meant to me
It’s my fault for being unable to be who I really am before you
I am sorry
there are so many things about you that I wanna know
but I never did dared to ask.
I was too late
When I asked, you had already became so distant.

Now as I feel my eyes tearing
I wonder why had you made me so weak
Why couldn’t I ever understand you?

What can I do
To make you come back
What should I do
to stop myself from breaking before you

Perhaps
At the end of the day
my inner voice was right
I do not deserve you at all.