Handful

My head keeps weaving in and out.

It started out with being hit

By my stepmom

In one of our

Many arguments.

We screamed for so long

The hit was the last straw.

I went to my room

And grabbed my trusty razor blade.

-Cut once-

Went back downstairs.

More yelling

Back upstairs

-Cut twice, three or four-

Had a headache.

Two tylenol.

Upstairs to "sleep".

-two or three more-

Decided then

To gather a handful of pills.

-two more-

Went back upstairs to wallow.

Decided to have a drink to help me sleep.

Forgetting about the tylenol

Taken naught but 10 minutes before

My handful of pills remains...

But for how long?