So much shame

Too much blame

It was no wonder you felt you couldn't win

Especially when you weren't who you'd been

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I never could've imagined this

So much of me still doesn't want to

Fearing that it's really come to be

That illusion is somehow still all I see

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Nothing's been the same

Nothing could ever be again

So many things changed that night

Nothing's been right since that morning's light

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I never could've imagined this

So much of me still doesn't want to

Fearing that it's really come to be

That illusion is somehow still all I see

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I never thought this would end this way

But now I see what I had was an illusion

And somehow I'm clinging to it even now

Even now that it could only be an illusion