Clear-Cut Confusion

Crying tears of shame
I blame myself for all you did
The pain I bear
Is my fault

I thought you cared about me
It was all a lie
You just wanted the taste of my kiss
On your lips

You were my first
You could have had dozens of girls
But you said it’s been years
I don’t know how much I can believe from you

You don’t understand the word commitment
No one person can satisfy your lusts
I was just the convenience of the evening
Forgotten by morning

I try to block out the sound of your voice
That is still ringing in my head
The sweet, sensual things
You whispered in my ear

I let a single tear fall
But you aren’t around to see
I’m all alone
With only haunting thoughts

I fall deeper into this depressive state
Consumed in a cavern of hurt and pain
Darkness surrounds me
Too weak to try and get out

You stole my kisses
But you blame me
And I let you
So I’m the one hurting

You’re still on the streets
Looking for another girl to defile
Because I wasn’t enough
But that truth will be kept secret

You will be my secret
I’ll only be hurt more if I let it out
I still want you
So I will hide these truths from the world

It was only you and me
And nothing can take away these memories
I still long to be back in your arms
But I have to know that there is no one else

Just hold me
I want to try again
I find it hard to believe
That I mean nothing to you

It’s not hard to see
You enjoy my company
I’ve already waited this long
But will your love ever come along

How can I mourn losing you?
Why would I want you back?
When will these feeling leave me alone?
I need to believe that I don’t need you