Darling, you may never know,

How my mind works,

Or how low I can really feel.

You may never understand,

That I want to do ten million things,

And have to pick and choose,

Because of my personal limiting factors.

I know you think I have it all,

The greatest relationships,

Hours of laughter,

Great Thoughts, dreams, and memories,

But I wouldn’t have half of that,

If it weren’t for you.

Words could never express,

How I truly feel,

Each second, moment, hour,

Day, night, the numbers go on,

About you.

I put on this façade,

Trying to impress you,

And convince you not to worry,

Because I know you care so much,

But it’s hard to keep smiling,

When you’re weeping inside.

I don’t want to bother you,

With all my troubles and my burden,

Because it seems selfish,

Compared to little thing,

That you’ve been going through,

And feeling guilty inside my mind,

For momentarily doubting you.

I’m trying to be independent,

You’re my role model,

Didn’t you know?

I want to be self-sufficient,

But I’m pressing my borders,

And not following the example,

Exactly as instructed.

I stand straight and tall,

But the base around me,

Breaks, cracks, melts,

My foundation of support,

Is completely non-exsistant,

At least, where it needs to be,

So I’ve been crumbling inside.

They rip my heart out,

Even though I never speak.

I cry unseen tears,

That I never wish to seek.

I wail unheard screams,

And dream obscure dreams,

Just to keep the cover up,

And smile for your sake.