What Is Emptiness?
By: Elsren

What is emptiness?

Maybe just a reflection... Or maybe just melancholy. Sadness. Loneliness. Rejection.

Or perhaps a hollow feeling at the pit of your stomach you just can't get rid of. It's always there, no matter what you do, and you can't fill it. No matter what you try, it's always... empty. Void. A gaping black hole that somehow sucks the life out of you, out of everything you do... out of life itself.

But it was filled once before.

A stolen smile... a stolen secret... it was SOMETHING that was taken from you. SOMETHING you can't live without. It's a part of you... you're missing it... but you don't know what it is. It's important. That's all you know.

Does that mean something's wrong? Something's lost? Something's gone forever?

No. Something's missing.

But it will be found.

All that is lost will someday be found. Whether it's a feeling... a memory... happiness... acceptance... joy...

Or even yourself.

You lost yourself. To someone else. A part of you was stolen.

STOLEN. Taken from you without your permission, but right under your nose.

You tried to hide it. You tried to keep up the broken, shattered facade that everything was ok.

But it wasn't.

And you knew it.

You lied to yourself and for what?

WHAT?!

But you still don't want to admit it... Admit that you've lost a part of yourself... And you can't get that part back.

Do you even want it back?

Sure, you answer. Sure you want the part back. You can't think without it, and there's just so much left to DO in your life... you need to concentrate on what's important. You can't go around fluttering and flitting and just wasting time.

Then again... life's changed since you lost that part of yourself. You see color where there was once a blob of muck and grey. You seem light-headed... never weighted down by anything that should bother you.

YOU HAVE A REASON...

To do what? Well, who knows? But the fact remains... you're doing things you've never done before on account of that thing... that part of you being gone. These new experiences... have they hurt you?

No... in fact, it's been pleasant, hasn't it? It's been exciting. You're LIVING. You're not just passing by anymore. You're in the action. YOU are participating in YOUR LIFE.

You actually like this feeling don't you?

And why shouldn't you?

Wait... you don't? You don't.

You don't like the fact that maybe...

Just maybe...

You're in love?

That maybe...

Just maybe...

That emptiness inside you...

Is not really just an emptiness.

It wasn't stolen.

YOU GAVE IT AWAY.

You gave it away... and that part of you that you considered so important... that "emptiness" that had to be filled...

Is actually quite full.

It's full of the essence of the one who "stole" that part of you.

He, she, it, is now a part of you... and you can't shake the feeling that maybe...

Just maybe...

You're never going to be able to get rid of that fact.

So what is emptiness?

...What is fullness?