The answer I never got

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Why?

Why did you do it to me?

I was only a kid

I was a little girl

A little girl with a huge heart and a smile

I never did anyone anything

I dreamed and lived in a fantasy world

Until you touched me and destroyed my world

I never cried because of you

I never said no so was it my fault?

I laid in my bed praying that you wouldn’t come

And if you did I closed my eyes and held on to my teddy bear.

I wanted my mom to protect me

But I was so busy protecting my mom

That I never got the chance to lean back and be the child

My world fell down and I felt my childhood vanish

I met the grownup world way too fast

I held on desperately to my childhood

But saw it vanish between my fingers.

Vanish like the years passed by

3 years passed by.

You turned every summer into hell

I was protecting sis from your dirty hands

You told me I had grown since the first time…

I managed to gather up all my strength and tell my mom

Mom’s heart broke… I saw her tears trailing down of her cheeks

And I knew I had cursed her that pain

I felt ashamed and afraid.

I saw my sister held my hand and told me not to cry

My mom held my tight and I allowed myself to cry

So here I am now.

Older wiser and probably more mature.

You called yourself my grandfather

Why did you do it to me?

What kind of man are you?!

I survived and grew stronger

So maybe knowing the answer to the question

Is not that important….

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A/N: This final chapter of my poem why is about me realizing that maybe knowing the answer isn't that important.

Love

Amarant Rose Coral (Amy)